Fanic Depression

One of the things I love most about football games is how momentum can swing back and forth from one team to the other. One of the things I hate most about football games is how momentum can swing back and forth from one team to the other.Lordy, how those momentum swings become mood swings.
I swear being a Tennessee football fan is going to make me a candidate for bipolar disorder.
At halftime Saturday night, the Vols were not just ahead in the score. They were winning. It was a 21-point game. Tennessee 21, South Carolina 0.
Two quarters later, by the time the game was a minute and a half from the clock running out, South Carolina had come back and were winning 24-21. The manic had become depression as we watch Tennessee fritter away what has looked like a sure win.
There is nothing higher than a football fan who’s team is winning. And the only thing lower than a fan who’s team is losing is a fan’s team that is losing when they’d had it won.
It’s a very surreal thing to see 100,000 people who, an hour before were grinning, high-fiving, and cheering, now frozen with shock in their bright orange wardrobe and painted faces; their paper shakers limp and silent in their fists.
The particulars are different for different fans, but we all tend to pass pretty quick through the first few stages of grief - shock, denial, bargaining, anger - and leap straight to depression. (Some get stuck on the bargaining stage. You’d be surprised how close to God some people become when football is on the line.)
The game was going to be our last chance at being in the hunt to finish first in our division. We had the chance last week at Alabama, but we blew it. But, earlier in the day, Mississippi State had taken care of Kentucky and Georgia had taken care of Florida. Tennessee needed to take care of South Carolina.
But every drive Tennessee had in the last quarter was “three and out.” (If you follow football, you know what that means. If you don’t, I ‘ll just say that the Vols were getting nowhere fast, and leave it at that.) That is until the final drive (that included a fumble that we recovered, a sack, and a penalty–talk about manic depression) that took us down field to 4th and 17 on the 31-yard line and down to 9 seconds on the clock. (For non-footballers, if we do not score on the next play, the game is over because either the clock will run out or South Carolina automatically gets the ball back and they will run the close out.)
The safest bet for scoring at this point would be to attempt a field goal kick(ball goes between the goal posts). That would tie the game and send it into over time and give us (unbelievably!) one more last chance. One more last chance that hinges on a 48 yard kick by a Freshman kicker when the game is on the line.
And it he did it! Tie game, 24-24.
The game went into overtime and Tennessee had the first possession. (In college football, each team gets one possession in overtime). Yet again we could not get a touchdown drive going, but scored on another field goal. This time a much easier one of 27 yards. Tennessee 27-SouthCarolina 24.
South Carolina then had possession and we teetered on the fence between manic and depression. South Carolina had been moving the ball well on us the last half of the game. A touchdown would win them the game. Somehow, Tennessee’s defense mustered the stops when it counted most and South Carolina was forced to go for a field goal, as well. If they make it, they tie the game again, and we go into second overtime.
Their kicker, Ryan Succop (yeah, it sounds like you think it does…can you imagine having a name like Succop and play for the Cocks [gamecocks]? The jokes are endless.) had a 40 yard attempt. He had done longer ones before, including a 49-yarder that had put the Gamecocks ahead of us in the first place.
My needle started drifting toward depressed and away from manic again, knowing he would nail the kick.
But he missed! The kick was no good!
Tennessee wins! (It’s interesting how the first stage of euphoria is the same as the first stage of grief: shock!) The depressed became the manic and the manic became the depressed.
And it became even harder to be a Succop.
October 29th, 2007 at 2:37 am
Who’s Arms are those!?
October 29th, 2007 at 8:39 am
I was wondering the very same thing. Though, by the end of the post I had forgotten it. Congrats to the Vols! Hooray!
October 29th, 2007 at 12:39 pm
LT… I love these football related posts. I think you capture the emotion of a true college football fan better than ANYBODY! Thank you for not being scared to post on this topic. UT football is YOU… and I love reading your feelings about the Vols. Even if this is a ratings (comments) loser post (much like my tennis posts are)… it is always the best LT writes about. It is what I look forward to the most!
GEAUX LSU TIGERS! BEAT THE EVIL SABAN BAMA NATION!!!!
October 29th, 2007 at 12:39 pm
While I was reading this entry, for the first time since I played in high school, I gave a damn about football. I always feel like, if I’m not playing why would I care, but you had me on the edge of my desk chair. Excellent story. I’m glad your Vols won.
October 29th, 2007 at 12:48 pm
yeah! whose arms are those!
and what about football?
October 30th, 2007 at 11:18 pm
Whose arms are those? The rest of the pic, please.
This kept me captivated, Tony. I’m glad Tennessee won.
November 4th, 2007 at 3:32 am
Recently my team was playing its biggest rival and I thought it was a sure win. After all, we’re doing great and they have nothing on us. But for half the game, they had the lead and I kept repeating in my head - ’cause I was in the stadium and didn’t want to offend anyone - “We better not fucking lose.” We didn’t, but for a while there, my entire world revolved around my team ‘fucking up’ theirs.
January 5th, 2008 at 8:24 pm
Nice Blog. I have been looking for blogs and such that I can relate to. I invite you to come to my blog and join me in my delightful spiral into death depression and nothing.
Thanks for your time. Remain happy ?