Good Friday?
By the time most of you read this, it will have already occured. The thought of it has me feeling a bit uneasy and a lot nervous. I’ve just gotten out of the shower, and I am trying to relax a bit and calm my head some in preparation for it. I thought maybe if I wrote a little bit about how I’m feeling right now, I will be able to handle it a lot better. “It” is sort of a blind date.
RJ has been trying to set me up for a long time and lately has challenged me on whether I have issues with getting close to people. So I agreed to go to dinner with another friend of his. I was going to tell you all about it earlier in the week, but I wasn’t sure if I would be able to go through with it, and I didn’t want to look like a big chicken in front of you all.
It’s not a completely blind date because I have seen a picture of him through RJ. And I suppose he has seen one of me (and I’m sure RJ did not show him any of the full Tony). So, it’s blind in the sense that we have never met, but are still going on a date. A date?!!!! God, my stomach just lurched.
You see, I think this is the first actual date date that I have been on with a guy. I went out on dates with girls all the time when I was young, but with guys it was a more of a “you wanna go hang out?” sort of thing. I guess they were dates, but they never seemed to have as much weight as tonight seems to have.
It’s bringing out weird behavior in me. It’s not that weird for me to be nervous about meeting someone. That’s nothing new. I’m always uneasy around people I don’t know. But I have been obsessing all week about what I am going to wear. ME…Tony. I know that I don’t dress that well, but before it never much mattered to me that don’t. And I need to leave the house withing 20 minutes and I still haven’t figured it out.
Part of me says I shouldn’t be doing this. I mean, what if it turns out that I like him and he likes me? What happens then? I don’t have the time to devote to someone else like you need to in a relationship. I wouldn’t even be able to just date on a regular basis. So, in a way, it seems like I am being unfair to this guy. But, at the same time, I need to spend some time with someone on a higher level than friends so badly. It;s been so long since I had a situation like that.
I’m probably being premature. I’m worrying about something that most likely won’t be an issue. So, I need to just relax and (try to) have a good time.
Maybe it will be a good friday. We’ll see.
April 14th, 2006 at 6:46 pm
never you fear large-lad! it’s all going to be just fine. if you’re anything like most people, the anticipation is much, much worse than what life actually serves up hot and fresh. relax, take a deep breath, and enjoy the time spent with someone new. i’m sure he’ll recognize the charm, wit and loveliness that you’ve displayed so bravely on this blog and you’ll have, if nothing else, a great night. besides, it doesn’t matter how you dress, it’s much more important how you undress… best of luck. i hope it goes well for you.
April 14th, 2006 at 7:02 pm
Just have a great time! It is about time you got out some, you know.
April 14th, 2006 at 8:23 pm
Keeping fingers crossed for you. But relax. You’re a swell guy and everybody knows it. Just be yourself and you can’t go wrong.
April 14th, 2006 at 8:56 pm
I hope you had fun on your DATE! You deserve to have fun.
April 14th, 2006 at 9:30 pm
Hope ya get to enjoy yourself, relax and try to have fun. This should be the first of many for you stud. I wish it was me getting set up with ya.
April 14th, 2006 at 9:35 pm
Excuse me, but what is a date?
April 15th, 2006 at 1:50 am
Good date, bad date- they are all about the crap shoot of finding your prince. I have had a few of both (even dates that I thought were good and the other didn’t think the same)…
It is ALL ABOUT living in the moment and enjoying the dinner or the drinks or the conversation, the humor in the perinnial date from hell or any combination.
I find going to PF Changs always makes even a bad date digestable!
And don’t move in with him by month’s end… that is soooo 90’s lesbian chic.
April 15th, 2006 at 7:04 am
I guess we can assume things didn’t go badly, as you haven’t posted anything yet =)
April 15th, 2006 at 1:03 pm
You what?
Yikes!
{…baited-breath…}
April 15th, 2006 at 1:03 pm
You what?
Yikes!
{…baited-breath…}
April 15th, 2006 at 1:07 pm
…anyone hear an echo?
(ye Gods…)
April 15th, 2006 at 1:41 pm
it is about time you went on a date so have a great time
April 15th, 2006 at 3:54 pm
last ‘date’ I went on the guy ordered a ceaser salad…………and asked for ranch dressing on it. The waiter looked at me…..I looked at him. We both shrugged. THAT was the highlight of the date.
Yours HAS to go better! : )
April 15th, 2006 at 3:54 pm
I always think it’s funny how people get nervous before dates - as though it’s really possible to control the outcome, whether or not you and the other guy will hit it off or hit each other (or both, depending on your inclination). If he ain’t your thing, nothing lost!
April 15th, 2006 at 6:26 pm
Blobby… that is a little whacky!
April 19th, 2006 at 1:55 am
Hmmm well… just go on the date and see what happens.. and you know what, in terms of dating and a relationship, where there’s a will, there’s a way I always say…
April 20th, 2006 at 3:06 pm
You put out negative you get back negative. Focus on the positive and not out of fear of what could not happen or even a fear of success.