Some Things Never Change
It’s the middle of the night and I am wide awake. That’s not really all that unusual because I am a bit of an insomniac. But the reason I am up tonight is becuase I slept through most of the day. It was one of those wasted day sleeps.
It was Sunday. I slept a little later than normal til about 10 o’clock. I usually get up about 8 or 8:30 on Sunday, then take my granny to church about 10:30 (11 o’clock service). But the weather was really cold for East Tennessee. It was in the 20’s up here in the mountains, even with the sun out. That’s really too cold for my granny to get out, so I knew I would not be dropping her off at church.
So I got up and we had some breakfast and she decided to watch some TV. I went up to my room to get dressed for the day but then decided to lie down a little longer. It’s an old house, so when its cold like this, it feels good to be wrapped up in a blanket. I dozed off and basically blew the whole afternoon. I slept for almost four more hours! I would wake up and think “Geez, I need to get up and do something productive.” But before I could I would doze off again. I felt like you do on those dark rainy days when you just want to lie in bed. But it was really sunny out. Freaking cold, but sunny.
Anyway, when I finally woke up for the last time, I nearly jumped on the ceiling. I almost shit my pants because I didn’t expect to see my granny sitting there staring at me. No disrespect to her, but it was like she was Damien, just sitting there quietly.
Then she said, “Are you feeling better? I can make you some soup.” I guess she thought I was sick since I was in bed for so long. But I wasn’t. I just couldn’t get myself jump-started. I don’t know why. But here was my granny, who I’m supposed to be taking care of, looking out for me. She started looking out for me when I was 14. I guess she always will.
January 17th, 2005 at 12:20 pm
Found your blog via the GayBloggers Tribe. Nice writing! I probably would have fallen out of my bed if I woke to see my grandmother sitting there watching me. It’s good to know that she really cares, though.